God is my Master Weaver!

It's incomprehensible how God works but it is also so amazing. He speaks through songs, stories, Bible studies, still small voices, loud clashing shouts but still He speaks. He gives peace where their should be none, understanding when you can't understand anymore, grace when that is the farthest thought in your mind, and compassion for others when all you want is for others to come and have a pity party for you! My God the master weaver can take all of the threads of my life and turn it into a tapestry of praise for Him!

For so long I tried to weave the "threads" of my life, only allowing God to help when I needed it. I cannot even begin to tell you how awful my tapestry looked, until last year I turned in my tools and let God do his work of art in my life. I turned my life over to the Lord over 15 years ago, I grew up in a Christian home, I was a member of a church 9 months before I was born, but I always tried to maintain the design. I was like that bumper stick "God is my Co-Pilot" but instead mine would have said "God is my Co-Weaver." I had felt the tugging of my strings before, but I knew what I wanted out of my design and I felt like I had the artistic direction to get it there, let's just be clear I DON'T!

I was master designer when I was in college and even though I had my struggles, I felt like I was in control. I became an intern with the "smart kids," I had rave reviews from others and I thought my design was "hot stuff." I began teaching and within the first three months I became a "model teacher," I was the one who received the outstanding reviews, I was the one who took the praise. When I got sick, I was the one who fought and won each battle with TTP and I was the one who took all of the sympathy.

Little did I know I that I was the one who was ruining the design. If you ask any artist they will tell you that if you don't step back to gain perspective and direction your piece will be ruined. I was the one who never stepped back. Yes, when I was in need or sick I prayed and asked God to make it better, and He did; but when I came through it I went on as if I did it all on my own. Now that I've released the controls, life doesn't seem like a chore. He has given such peace, understanding, and grace and that is all I could ever want or need!

I'm not going to go into all of the details that lead me to hand in my "tool" and let God finish the design, but I will skim them.
I think back to last year when this all started, I knew what God wanted me to do and I did it. I will never regret what I said, how I said it, why I said it, or what came of it. I know and can see that He was and is working all things for my good. I got a chance to teach some awesome kids and hopefully make an impact. I got the opportunity to go to a new school and learn from insanely awesome teacher and to spend a year with my Cam!

Even though He didn't change the outcome to what I wanted, He changed the outcome to what I needed. Even though He didn't send me a "Publishers Clearinghouse" check for $100,000,000, He is providing for my needs. Even though He isn't sitting on my bed or writing a blog to explain the whys and whats, He provides me with scripture/Bible study or a song when I need it. He's not crowding me with people who would be more than willing to help me have a pity party because He knows I don't need it! He's showing me everyday that there are those with situations and circumstances that in the grand scheme of thing may or may not be "bigger" than mine, but to them it is everything and He has provided me with a compassion for them that I might not of ever had. (Let me just say for those people, if there are an, who may one day read this blog; I am very compassionate (and humble, can't you tell :), but there are some people who I find it very hard to have compassion for (this would be people who I know, not strangers)!)

In closing I will never regret the day when I asked Jesus to save my soul and forgive me of my sins, nor will I ever regret the day when I choose to change my saying from "God is my Co-Weaver" to "God is my MASTER WEAVER!"

Thank you Lord for allowing me to come into Your Kingdom! Thank you for saving me of my sins, even though You knew that i would not turn over my tools until later in my life! Thank you for meeting each and every one of my needs! Lord, You are so great and awesome and I just praise You for what you have done in and through this sinner's life! Father I just pray that you continue to weave my life in such a way that it only brings praise and glory to you! Please let me be a witness for You! I give You all the praise, honor, and glory FOREVER! AMEN!



I'D RATHER HAVE JESUS
George Beverly Shea

I'd rather have Jesus than silver or gold,
I'd rather be His than have riches untold;
I'd rather have Jesus than houses or land,
I'd rather be led by His nail-pierced hand:

Chorus
Than to be the king of a vast domain
Or be held in sin's dread sway
I'd rather have Jesus than anything
This world affords today

I'd rather have Jesus than men's applause,
I'd rather be faithful to His dear cause;
I'd rather have Jesus than worldwide fame,
I'd rather be true to His holy name:...

He's fairer than lilies of rarest bloom,
He's sweeter than honey from out the comb;
He's all that my hungering spirit needs;
I'd rather have Jesus and let Him lead:...

How Great Is Our God

The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God